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Hi everyone,
I'd say many unveilings happened to me about two years ago... in the middle of those unveilings I was "at the time" living with a guy... When the unveiling happened it was like I was in a Room with a stranger ... The holy spirit convicted me... I sat down with Him and explained what had happened to me and that God showed me "how" we were living was not the best plan God has for our lives. That we were living outside His plan and will for our lives.. It fell on deaf ears.. I packed up and fled that night after we couldn't get into agreement about it. He said I was doing it to manipulate Him into marriage... Manipulate ? Hardly.. You don't want to do something I'm okay with that.. If i dont want to do something and you try to make me keep doing it.. I simply leave.. he begged and pleaded to stay and now says " I never loved Him... Well buddy , it's either Gods way or no way... Many accusations, put downs, pleading, I suggested we go to counseling to work it out , he rejected the idea..So I said no problem , you are welcome to do things your way, however I'm sticking with Gods way.. Anyway if anyone has bible verses for encouragement to stand strong or other verses that will help. I'd appreciate it . God is strengthening me more through this process.. That it really is okay to be aggressive if niceness isn't working .. I've always been to merciful because I dont like how it feels to be mean.. When it happens it's usually after many verbal attacks and put downs .. Something comes up and fights like Godzilla , and I do not know where it comes from.. Im always for the underdog and will never start a fight.. In fact i try to avoid them. My mom always said .. Your like a dump truck , always have been.. You give the" back up " warning over and over and over... Sometimes to long.. .. You even let the warning go off when its "you " who is backing up.. If the warnings arent adhearwd too or you are chased after.. You completely unload and take care of the situation and have always won... I run to God afterwards and hand those feelings toGod
. Tell him I didn't want to have to do the things I did because I absolutely hate how it feels doing it.. I'm worried that standing up is not okay and if it is why does it feel so rotten afterwards? Thanks for allowing me to share ... I just can see another battle coming up and trying to prepare for it.. Sigh.. I just want to do the right thing.. And for it to be okay when you have to change things.. Why does it have to be such a battle? It's not that difficult to do when you figure out what you were doing was the wrong way... I don't care if anyone else does it.. I care that I do it.. If you dont want too thats cool, go your own way..doesn't mean I have to follow you .. Or disrespect you because of what you believe. Thanks for letting me get this out.. Depending on the lords strength, the Lords Word, and the
Lords wisdom to Help me through this next go round... I will stand with the Lord... Bible verses appreciated . Thanks everyone
I'd say many unveilings happened to me about two years ago... in the middle of those unveilings I was "at the time" living with a guy... When the unveiling happened it was like I was in a Room with a stranger ... The holy spirit convicted me... I sat down with Him and explained what had happened to me and that God showed me "how" we were living was not the best plan God has for our lives. That we were living outside His plan and will for our lives.. It fell on deaf ears.. I packed up and fled that night after we couldn't get into agreement about it. He said I was doing it to manipulate Him into marriage... Manipulate ? Hardly.. You don't want to do something I'm okay with that.. If i dont want to do something and you try to make me keep doing it.. I simply leave.. he begged and pleaded to stay and now says " I never loved Him... Well buddy , it's either Gods way or no way... Many accusations, put downs, pleading, I suggested we go to counseling to work it out , he rejected the idea..So I said no problem , you are welcome to do things your way, however I'm sticking with Gods way.. Anyway if anyone has bible verses for encouragement to stand strong or other verses that will help. I'd appreciate it . God is strengthening me more through this process.. That it really is okay to be aggressive if niceness isn't working .. I've always been to merciful because I dont like how it feels to be mean.. When it happens it's usually after many verbal attacks and put downs .. Something comes up and fights like Godzilla , and I do not know where it comes from.. Im always for the underdog and will never start a fight.. In fact i try to avoid them. My mom always said .. Your like a dump truck , always have been.. You give the" back up " warning over and over and over... Sometimes to long.. .. You even let the warning go off when its "you " who is backing up.. If the warnings arent adhearwd too or you are chased after.. You completely unload and take care of the situation and have always won... I run to God afterwards and hand those feelings toGod
. Tell him I didn't want to have to do the things I did because I absolutely hate how it feels doing it.. I'm worried that standing up is not okay and if it is why does it feel so rotten afterwards? Thanks for allowing me to share ... I just can see another battle coming up and trying to prepare for it.. Sigh.. I just want to do the right thing.. And for it to be okay when you have to change things.. Why does it have to be such a battle? It's not that difficult to do when you figure out what you were doing was the wrong way... I don't care if anyone else does it.. I care that I do it.. If you dont want too thats cool, go your own way..doesn't mean I have to follow you .. Or disrespect you because of what you believe. Thanks for letting me get this out.. Depending on the lords strength, the Lords Word, and the
Lords wisdom to Help me through this next go round... I will stand with the Lord... Bible verses appreciated . Thanks everyone