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Hello All,
I have been praying to find a Biblical answer to this question. A few years ago, I was really struggling in my marriage (had been married 10 years at the time). I developed a flirtation with someone, which became physical, although we did not have sex. After feeling horrible from this sinful string of behavior, I have confessed, repented and pleaded with God for forgiveness. I do not want to tell my husband for many reasons, the first being it would crush him. The second is that I know he would either leave me or never trust me again, which I know I deserve. I can't risk that; I have to put our kids first and I can't risk splitting up our family. Here's my question, I know God has forgiven me for the sin of infidelity, but will he forgive me for living a lie to my husband? Is this sin of omission something that I could lose my soul over? In Psalm 51, David pleads for forgiveness when he sins with Bathsheba. He says to God, "against you alone I have sinned." I pray that my confession and repentance to God is enough for this horrible trespass.
I am living with the consequences of this sin every day, and sank into a deep depression over it. I think I would actually feel better to just tell and come clean, but is that selfish if I think it would make ME feel better and hurt my husband? I actually have thought that if he cheated on me, but stopped and never did it again, I would rather not know about it.
Do you think my salvation is at stake if I don't tell?
I have been praying to find a Biblical answer to this question. A few years ago, I was really struggling in my marriage (had been married 10 years at the time). I developed a flirtation with someone, which became physical, although we did not have sex. After feeling horrible from this sinful string of behavior, I have confessed, repented and pleaded with God for forgiveness. I do not want to tell my husband for many reasons, the first being it would crush him. The second is that I know he would either leave me or never trust me again, which I know I deserve. I can't risk that; I have to put our kids first and I can't risk splitting up our family. Here's my question, I know God has forgiven me for the sin of infidelity, but will he forgive me for living a lie to my husband? Is this sin of omission something that I could lose my soul over? In Psalm 51, David pleads for forgiveness when he sins with Bathsheba. He says to God, "against you alone I have sinned." I pray that my confession and repentance to God is enough for this horrible trespass.
I am living with the consequences of this sin every day, and sank into a deep depression over it. I think I would actually feel better to just tell and come clean, but is that selfish if I think it would make ME feel better and hurt my husband? I actually have thought that if he cheated on me, but stopped and never did it again, I would rather not know about it.
Do you think my salvation is at stake if I don't tell?