I haven't been able to control myself lately. I really hate my life right now, and I've never felt as lonely, hurt and more lost than I do now. My parents are good to me and care for me, but I just haven't been able to find the motivation to jump start my life ever since I've graduated college. Things keep happening and I just get discouraged and I just don't see hope anymore. I've made some close friends ever since I've graduated, but there's one that I've gotten real close to. She's an awesome funny kind person, but lately she's gotten into some trouble and she's dissociated herself from many of her friends. I've met her online and I've gotten real emotionally close with her, but I've recently gotten hurt because of that. I don't know if she's talked to many people ever since things have gone downhill for her, but I just can't get her out of my head. I keep trying to talking to her, but she's just changed so much and has been mean to me. I've just had to leave her alone even though it pains me to do so. My relationship is just complicated with her, and I've only felt like I've been a problem for her. I've just really wanted to go back to the way things were with her, because she used to be an awesome close friend that I could rely on and help her out also. Right now it doesn't seem like things will get better and I've kind of just lost hope. I realize I'm too focused on her, but I just can't get her out of my head. Also my granddad is in hospice now, and it's really depressing here. He probably doesn't have much more time left...I've been crying more and I keep having this terrible painful feeling in my chest all the time. I'm not getting anywhere in life, I've lost my best friend, and now I'm about to lose my granddad too. I've only just recently started praying about all of this, and it's helped me feel relieved for a little bit but the pain is still here. It's not easy for me to talk about this either...I'd just appreciate it if you could help pray for me.
EDIT: I just realized I posted this in the wrong section. Can someone please move this to the prayer requests? Thanks
EDIT: I just realized I posted this in the wrong section. Can someone please move this to the prayer requests? Thanks
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