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I should just add on the selfish side I have tried numerous things to look after myself first. Trying not to think about her all the time is the most difficult. I removed all pictures and a lot of items in my house that she gave me or we bought together. I found even trivial seemingly unrelated things would spark a memory then a chain of thoughts followed.
The other day I saw a small red car and I instantly thought of her daughter and the first car she owned which I spray painted for her. It was small and red but not even the same make or model.
Most of the music I enjoy listening to doesn't give me any joy now. Music we shared together only brings back memories all of which are happy memories but they're quickly followed by the deep sadness and a feeling of loss.
I thought I might be suffering depression myself but my doctor believes it is just grief and it takes time as everybody says.
Waking up and instantly having some thoughts about her every single day is also something I can't seem to avoid.
The other day I saw a small red car and I instantly thought of her daughter and the first car she owned which I spray painted for her. It was small and red but not even the same make or model.
Most of the music I enjoy listening to doesn't give me any joy now. Music we shared together only brings back memories all of which are happy memories but they're quickly followed by the deep sadness and a feeling of loss.
I thought I might be suffering depression myself but my doctor believes it is just grief and it takes time as everybody says.
Waking up and instantly having some thoughts about her every single day is also something I can't seem to avoid.
And keywords or images affect me too. Tv is often difficult at times due to its randomness.
Hmm... bipolar without the highs is just depression. Can't say I've ever heard if bipolar with no extremes. That seems to take away from even the name... bi... polar.