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I never thought I would ever be one to unload into a computer but I am soooo very tired and discouraged. I am nearly 40 years old and have never been married. And my last long term relationship was nearly 10 years ago and it was a disaster. I am waiting on the one the Lord has or is preparing for me but I am so tired of trying to do all this meanial stuff alone. Yes, I know the Lord is with me and He is all I need but selfishly I want someone to simply talk to. I do talk to God but it is usually a one way verbal conversation. And yes I know He speaks to me, but its not the same as having a living, breathing, human being sitting phsyically across from you and speaking audibly directly to you and you can look him in the eyes. I do not feel I am desperate, but I do get lonely for adult companionship. I am trying to be strong and wait on the Lord, and I will continue to wait, but I would so much like to have someone to communicate with. Was just wondering if anyone else has been or is in a similiar situation and how do you handle it? I do pray but sometimes it feels more like whining than praying, and I for one cannot stand whining... lol I do not want to seem like I do not have faith, cause I do. Oh, it's just to hard to explaing. Maybe someone will understand what I am trying to say..... ugh, blah, blah, blah.....