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I was released from prison Sept 21, 2015 and I have started a new life in Christ outside the fences. I found Christ in prison Aug 2007. Before Christ, I was the worst society had to offer. I blamed God for all my troubles, I actually believed He hated me so I decided to hate Him back. I was addicted to a lifestyle of self-gratification; if it felt good I was probably into it. On top of all of that I was a pagan. I knew who I was serving deep inside, I just didn'the care.
But God who is gracious and merciful was trying to stop me from hurting myself and all those who loved me. I would have liked to say that I turned from my madness but I LOVED me more.
So I lost it all, family, children, girlfriend... I say this to my shame but to His glory. Because when I burned all bridges, when I was abandoned by all my family, when I had no one and failed at suicide and even escape, that's when Jesus called me. He removed from me all the rage that I had been living with since my father died. He showed me what true love really is and I was hooked. He loved me when I was unlovable. He wanted me when no one else did. Jesus did not reject me even after I had been so cruel to Him. Even thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. Jesus I love you.
He lead me through my time in prison and taught me to love in a place where there is very little to no love at all. He taught me to fight spiritually in a place bombarded daily by the enemy. He showed me what it is to be a man who simply loves Christ.
So here I am, free to be who God created me to be. I appreciate life, the fresh air, the beautiful colors and the freedom to express my love for Christ openly. I talk to everyone I come across about Jesus, sober or not. I can't help it, there is so much to say. It was a battle to be Christian at times behind the fences. Out here there is so much freedom to minister to those in need.
I am grateful for the life I now live in Him. I praise God for the freedom He has given me through His sacrifice on the cross. I look forward to sharing with all my past failures and all that I have overcome in Christ Jesus our Lord. God bless you all indeed!
But God who is gracious and merciful was trying to stop me from hurting myself and all those who loved me. I would have liked to say that I turned from my madness but I LOVED me more.
So I lost it all, family, children, girlfriend... I say this to my shame but to His glory. Because when I burned all bridges, when I was abandoned by all my family, when I had no one and failed at suicide and even escape, that's when Jesus called me. He removed from me all the rage that I had been living with since my father died. He showed me what true love really is and I was hooked. He loved me when I was unlovable. He wanted me when no one else did. Jesus did not reject me even after I had been so cruel to Him. Even thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. Jesus I love you.
He lead me through my time in prison and taught me to love in a place where there is very little to no love at all. He taught me to fight spiritually in a place bombarded daily by the enemy. He showed me what it is to be a man who simply loves Christ.
So here I am, free to be who God created me to be. I appreciate life, the fresh air, the beautiful colors and the freedom to express my love for Christ openly. I talk to everyone I come across about Jesus, sober or not. I can't help it, there is so much to say. It was a battle to be Christian at times behind the fences. Out here there is so much freedom to minister to those in need.
I am grateful for the life I now live in Him. I praise God for the freedom He has given me through His sacrifice on the cross. I look forward to sharing with all my past failures and all that I have overcome in Christ Jesus our Lord. God bless you all indeed!