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I am seeking guidance and prayers....I am a 30 year old married woman with two kids. I love my husband and my children so much. Last year was very tough-my mom got diagnosed with cancer and I found out I needed a very big surgery that entailed a large recovery. My husband and I grew emotionally distant and I started growing my friendship with two men. For a few months I was giving more of my emotional self to these men-talking about my anxiety and depression issues as well as work things (they are coworkers)-my husband knew I was friends with them but not to what extent. I didn't tell my husband how much I was talking to them -both in person and on text message. This went on for a few months and after my surgery and recovery I had a major talk with God and realized this could be headed down a dangerous path. I instantly told one of them we shouldn't be friends anymore as I thought it was unhealthy for me and my marriage....I also just stopped reaching out and communicating with the other... it has been very easy to cold turkey cut off all communication with them and I have not talked to them other than a quick work hello in over 4 months.....recently I have been overcome with guilt. I feel as though I had some short emotional affairs on my husband and never told him. I tried to tell him but couldnt work up the courage. Our marriage is great right now and I am worried what it could do ......it was also months and months ago....