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As I sit here feeling the loss of relationships of my blood relatives and relatives by marriage, I can feel very alone if I dwell on this. It was sudden, by my choice, everyone close to me...including several friends have ended their relationships with me. My husband will divorce me. My son will not speak to me. I appear to be at fault for "all the calamity" I've caused them. My former church friends shun me as well. I announced I was accepting Christianity and leaving the church of Scientology. We had been given "great news" by the CoS...our family were relocating to Florida to fulfill a contract with an elite org and everything was planned out. The house was being packed up, deals were done. Motivated seller, eager buyer. Sounds perfect except... I didn't wanna go and they could have went without drama. I couldn't accept because I'd lost faith in it and had been made aware of how things are done in the org. I'd visited before for a couple of months and was unimpressed. I wished them Bon Voyage. I took a different road to success...in search of Jesus.
I realize not all relationships are healthy. Just because people are relatives doesn't necessarily mean they are healthy to be around. I've asked myself many times if its better to sit by myself in an empty home or to be in a busy home surrounded by people who make me feel awful.
This is the thought that keeps coming to mind after praying about it-
Fellow believers in Christianity are Brothers and Sisters! Brothers and Sisters are family. There are untold numbers in our Christian family! God is the Father. It doesn't get any better than this! Family by choice! This room doesn't feel so empty now... Jesus is with me!
Jesus gives me inner peace in the midst of chaos. Jesus gives me love when I feel alone. There is the gift of pure love all around me. I read the Bible to draw closer to Him. I sing newly learned Christian songs to boost the happiness factor and fill the room with God's love (my cat covers his ears) when I sing. Angels are around me and help me in subtle ways.
I've learned that I can be alone without being lonely...in fact, loneliness is a deception. I'm surrounded by God's love and couldn't ask for more. Thank you, Jesus!
Jerricka
I realize not all relationships are healthy. Just because people are relatives doesn't necessarily mean they are healthy to be around. I've asked myself many times if its better to sit by myself in an empty home or to be in a busy home surrounded by people who make me feel awful.
This is the thought that keeps coming to mind after praying about it-
Fellow believers in Christianity are Brothers and Sisters! Brothers and Sisters are family. There are untold numbers in our Christian family! God is the Father. It doesn't get any better than this! Family by choice! This room doesn't feel so empty now... Jesus is with me!
Jesus gives me inner peace in the midst of chaos. Jesus gives me love when I feel alone. There is the gift of pure love all around me. I read the Bible to draw closer to Him. I sing newly learned Christian songs to boost the happiness factor and fill the room with God's love (my cat covers his ears) when I sing. Angels are around me and help me in subtle ways.
I've learned that I can be alone without being lonely...in fact, loneliness is a deception. I'm surrounded by God's love and couldn't ask for more. Thank you, Jesus!
Jerricka