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OK now I can't be alone in this so I'm gonna ask: Is anyone else petrified of the thought of praying aloud in the presence of others - or am I just weird? Just the thought of it brings me out in a cold sweat. The thought of 1. My audible voice. 2. I just know I won't know what to say and 3. Because I'm so nervous my words will be all jumbled-up. I used to attend a prayer meeting weekly at my church but it got silly because I was the only one who wouldn't pray - so I stopped going. Sometimes at church Sundays one of the pastors in my church will ask us to pray for others - the first time he did this I seriously considered walking out or making it to the restroom - seriously I'm that bad. Since then I have extremely reluctantly (and it's not that I don't want to pray for others, I REALLY do) prayed but I can't find the right words and my prayer is always shorter than everyone else's.
Of course I pray alone, generally in a whisper or very quietly and sometimes just in my head if others are around. Maybe it's the lifetime of not being a Christian or being in a non-Christian environment makes it still a little alien to me but when I pray alone it doesn't feel unnatural, I just can't face praying in front of others.
Really this is a cry for help because I hate being like this, I want to overcome it - HELP!
Of course I pray alone, generally in a whisper or very quietly and sometimes just in my head if others are around. Maybe it's the lifetime of not being a Christian or being in a non-Christian environment makes it still a little alien to me but when I pray alone it doesn't feel unnatural, I just can't face praying in front of others.
Really this is a cry for help because I hate being like this, I want to overcome it - HELP!