That's faith. Your faith and trust just inspired me. I am sure you are on the right way.
I don't know, if I should post a threat about faith or share some thoughts on that here.
Well, I believe your way of dwelling in Christ, waiting on him and trusting on him deserves some extra words.
As we know Apostle Peter was in several occasions hot tempered and of little faith.
Like in Galatians 2, when the jews came he stopped taking invitations to eat with gentiles.
In matthew 14 When he saw the wind and waves he was afraid and cried out to Jesus: save me.
In John 21, he tries on his own efforts to catch a fish. And even as an experienced fisherman he has no success. Until Jesus joined and showed him where to fish.
The same goes when Malchus came to arrest Jesus, he - Peter - once faced his enemy jumped up and attacked Malchus.
And after Jesus was arrested, he lost three times his trust in him and turned his back on him.
In short: whenever challenges showed up, the faith of Peter got little.
Hot tempered or tempered by prayer? By Pastor Dan Downey.
http://savedhealed.com/Audio/hottempered.mp3
That's why you do it perfectly. God works for those who wait on him. By John Piper.
https://youtu.be/G6t-iFeVavw
But I also would like to mention what Jesus talked to Kathalee. Let's not question if that encounter is real or not. That should not be the question now.
Kathaleen NDE 690
"I said, will I ever find a person you meant for me to be with? He said yes and he'd be wonderful. He'd send him when I was ready. He was already here for me but I was to get all my troubles straightened out first so as not to put them all on him! Laughing I said well he better be cute and he said you two will find each other irresistible."
In Isaiah 30:15 God says:
15 For thus saith the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel; In returning and rest shall ye be saved; in quietness and in confidence shall be your strength:
https://youtu.be/cH3AGpL_GCw
That is pointed out through the whole bible.
To be still and know, have faith, that He is God.
Erika McKenzie died and had an encounter with God. God talked her, that we can ask for gifts. But in order to receive them, we have to be quiet. (Let's now not question the account)
https://youtu.be/xG_hEi8E4U8
"Be still" (Woman of little faith) He said to Shirley Brown, that found out that everytime she got unpatiened and doubtful about if God will work for her - she made it worse. (Let's not question that account)
The bible says, an doubtful man is like a wave tossed by the sea. Unstable in all his ways and will receive nothing.
https://youtu.be/WA-OfNaMFuk
And to follow His Laws - so He said it to Yvonne Sklar. (Let's not question the account. That should be not the question).
https://youtu.be/mN-46dJjIuI
The bible is clear. If we abide in him and ask according to His will, He hears us.
And you do that so well. You trust in Him, believe in Him, wait on Him. I just had to let you know that. "That's faith." by John Piper.
https://youtu.be/11FTk05nWhE