I feel so guilty for feeling hurt. I don't know how to fix my life. I have numb the sadness I feel pushed it inside. I pushed my sadness and people away. I totally isolated myself cry in private. I yearn to love and be loved,but I don't love myself.. How did I get so broken?Bad things happen to everyone bad childhood,ill,divorce but they stop let go and continue strive in life.. I feel guilty .. guilty because I feel as though I'm not succeeding in my life. I try so hard to catch up everyone.Facebook depress me so much seeing my ex husband married , but I have been alone now 6 years. I prayed for him was happy but I torn by the past dream of good times shared.. yet I knew that we needed to part ways. I once thought he was bad but I stopped forgave him and started to see that he loved me even though it ended.
I feel guilty for feeling the way I feel.lonely,failure,,ugly old,.. my worth my value my self esteem is shattered. I know it's wrong to compare myself to others but I envy my ex for succeeding finding love again.. I feel guilty for feeling envious cause I know it's wrong.
I feel guilty for feeling the way I feel.lonely,failure,,ugly old,.. my worth my value my self esteem is shattered. I know it's wrong to compare myself to others but I envy my ex for succeeding finding love again.. I feel guilty for feeling envious cause I know it's wrong.