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First of all .. my mother language is not english, so sorry for my grammar..
But I'm not sure how to write here... Should I just say hi? Hi I'm Jaana and I'm from Estonia..
I feel like I should tell my long story short... and my problem.
So, I'm new to christianity, nobody in my family is a believer.. and I've been new ager for about 6-7 years and I think I met Jesus about a week ago. He washed me, but not completely.. I felt like he washed me to show me the truth, but didn't completely save me.
And heres my problem. I feel like I'm either possessed or being manipulated by demons (or such). Some days I'm in deep faith and then I'm losing my mind and feeling like something wants to drag me to darkness. I've prayed quite alot too. I'm quite sure I'm moving towards new life, but I feel so scared of what is happening to me lately. Are here people who can see through deceptions and support me a little? I feel completely alone, I have 0 believers around me.
I guess I'm asking for help or whatever.
Please don't be too harsh on me. :'/ I feel really scared posting this, problably its not me who is scared, but the devil.
But I'm not sure how to write here... Should I just say hi? Hi I'm Jaana and I'm from Estonia..
I feel like I should tell my long story short... and my problem.
So, I'm new to christianity, nobody in my family is a believer.. and I've been new ager for about 6-7 years and I think I met Jesus about a week ago. He washed me, but not completely.. I felt like he washed me to show me the truth, but didn't completely save me.
And heres my problem. I feel like I'm either possessed or being manipulated by demons (or such). Some days I'm in deep faith and then I'm losing my mind and feeling like something wants to drag me to darkness. I've prayed quite alot too. I'm quite sure I'm moving towards new life, but I feel so scared of what is happening to me lately. Are here people who can see through deceptions and support me a little? I feel completely alone, I have 0 believers around me.
I guess I'm asking for help or whatever.
Please don't be too harsh on me. :'/ I feel really scared posting this, problably its not me who is scared, but the devil.