This sounds very painful, I'm so sorry. God sees you in this place and cares for you. The best place to seek love and acceptance is in His presence, and the best part, you never have to feel guilty. You're feelings are valid, your trust has been broken and that takes time to heal. However, I wouldn't rush into thoughts of giving up or leaving your husband, even if he did cheat on you, that is a very western and non biblical way of thinking. Marriage is sacred before God and it is His desire that we honor those vows, even if our spouse did not. I would pray that you would try everything before even considering leaving him. God can heal any marriage. Try communicating with him, finding out what went wrong: why he strayed. Create boundaries together to protect your marriage, on both ends. Pray together, just doing that literally increases your chances for success. Consider buying, reading, and implementing the love dare (book, created from the movie fireproof). One thing I would really recommend is that you both read (ASAP) the five love languages, this is an amazing book that opened my eyes on how to love my husband and also be loved in return. If you need the author name let me know but the book is famous, Amazon has it, or you should be able to google it easily. God bless you!