Yes I would hope that if christianity is true that I would still be forgiven by God and that He would bring me back to Him
I am not against God, I am not in rebellion, I simply am in a place where i cannot believe based on my current knowledge.
I could go through the motions and repent if I wanted to. I could go to church and feel the same sense of peace during worship but in my mind I would not be convinced it was true or real.
Would you be willing to admit the possibility that its not real, God is a concept in our minds, the feeling of the Holy Spirit is a product of complex brains?
Dose, love you, you are real, and I see Father is revealing himself to you. And wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when this comes full circle. for I know there is trying to believe and be accepted, which is not real, it is an act to be patted on the back. been there myself and see it as it is.
Knowing this today, in place of being seen of men as to be rewarded as Christ rebuked this motive as he walked here on earth. The religionists attacked and went against him, for while he was not of the motive to steal, their glory, he by not making himself the center of attention became exactly that.
So more and more people were following after him, not going to Synagogue, title changed today to Church. So they plotted to kill him, one that just plainly gave love to all and hung around the worst sort of sinners, and just loving them, letting them choose truth over error
So seeing this not to be the center of attention, and to be humble and not try to be the one, as Christ to me is the one and only way to the live he lived here on earth, not ever fighting in and from his flesh being he was clothed in.
Today he is no longer known in the flesh, rather in Spirit and truth, whom I see to worship by trusting God's love as in 1 cor. 13:4-13 to be poured out in and through me and know this is truth, beyond measure
God just love you is the starting point for us all, started at his death for us that he could have refuted, yet chose not to, why?
Was it to give us new life thoughts in Spirit and truth by his resurrected being?
We all have free choice to decide what is truth and what is error
So since i see truth is to set us free, then error must keep one in bondage you think?
So if I am in bondage and not free to love as God does in 1 Cor 13:4-13, then there has to be error in the truth Father has given us through Son Jesus Christ
And I am not saying I won't ever sin again, that is arrogant, prideful and proud, and think I am perfect when only Father is. So by belief, in what Son has done, we are made one with Father and Son. The Holy Spirit of truth, connects us to this truth we all are one, yet many parts, like our bodies are many parts yet one body
Thank you for anyone reading and hearing as Father does the revealing of this truth in Father through Son. Making us one. as said in John 16, might be 17, but truth id truth and that can never be changed
Nothing can separate us any of us from God's love, and is light that has past tense overcome the darkness, forever, Chirst being the high priest that lives for ever by the resurrection, which justifies us in Spirit and truth