The other day.. I did something I really shouldn't have done. I later prayed, apologized and repented of it thinking things would go back like they were but it didn't happen. The last 2 days, my mind has been screwed up. Meaning, I feel my joy has left, the peace has left, and my want and desire to follow God has left. I have been fighting with myself with this not understanding what's going on and why I'm feeling like this. I've been praying that the temptation for me to stop following god would leave and what was my true desire to follow and work for him to come back. So far, no such luck but I don't understand what happened and why this negativity has remained. I hate it.