Hellokitty123,I also have gone through depression. I understand your pain. I also wanted to die in the past, but a year ago I almost died in a car accident and I begged God to let me live and I did. Sweetheart, you are a beautiful person. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. I know you want to be noticed and loved but Christ loves you just as you are. I'm sorry it seems like your mom doesn't have time for you. You are a precious jewel. God is with you. In your home, at the store, everywhere. He wants to be your friend and the deepest love you can imagine. Please don't kill yourself. This life gets better. Satan wants you to give up. But Christ died to give you life & to the fullest. Refuse satan & his lies! you seem young & maybe your hormones are not straightened out. I know, because I had crazy hormones and my doctor prescribed me medicine. So maybe try to ask a doctor? The Lord spent time making you & He knows the wonderful plans He has for you."Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him." 1 corinthians 2:9 God is only positive & good. And He can only do good. Try to think more positive. Don't even let a bad thought come into your mind. If that bad thought comes into your mind, turn it around. Tell yourself that it is not true. Tell yourself "I am attractive, I am kind, I am lovable, I am worth it, I am successful. " I know it seems silly but the more you hear it, the more you believe it. I promise it works because it is working for me. You are God's precious child. He loves you. But if you kill yourself, you won't have hope to be with Him because that is murder. You would be trying to take the place of God. So please darling hang in there. Don't let satan do this to you & tell you these lies. Prove him wrong and become the best, happiest person you can be. ♥ Someone out there is going to be very happy to have you. Much love to you.