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Well first I'd just like to tell you a little bit about my story.
On March 7th my daughter was taken from me over a scratch to her genital area caused by our dog. I know that this is what caused the injury because I witnessed it myself. My daughter is 2 and potty training. When I took my daughter to the doctor to be checked out they called social services. Social services claimed that it was from sexual abuse which I know is not true, I saw the injury myself. My husband is a Marine and when his command caught word of what happened they through him in military jail illegally and the civilian detective had to get him out.
Now to my point, earlier in the day my husband and I had gotten into a big arguement. Ive been with my husband since i was 14 and Im now 24, our relationship has been through so much but it has gotten to the point that I feel it is abusive and unhealthy.
On March 11th I prayed with the pastors wife at my sisters church and asked to rededicate my life to God. But my heart was still aching and I had fallen to such a dark place that I attempted suicide. I took over 100 powerful sedatives but God allowed me to live. I spent several days in the ICU and 9 days in a psychiatric hospital. My world had been ripped from under me, my beautiful daughter and my husband taken in a blink of an eye. I remember waking up and feel blessed that I had survived, feeling as though God has given me a second chance.
Now a month later and a month to our first court date over my child I am wondering where I stand with my husband. I have been clinging to God and learning how to change, but my husband shows little interest in his actions. He says he wants to change but his actions show me differemt.
This is a defining point in my life. I have found God and know I must lean on him, but I feel that my relationship with my husband will drive a wedge between christ and I. My husband and I have been abusive to each other and I no longer wish to live that way.What happens if my husband doesnt choose to follow God, if he wants to continue the old lifestyle? I know without God in our life our marriage is doomed. I just needed someone to hear my story, other christians, to offer me some advice. I feel empty.
On March 7th my daughter was taken from me over a scratch to her genital area caused by our dog. I know that this is what caused the injury because I witnessed it myself. My daughter is 2 and potty training. When I took my daughter to the doctor to be checked out they called social services. Social services claimed that it was from sexual abuse which I know is not true, I saw the injury myself. My husband is a Marine and when his command caught word of what happened they through him in military jail illegally and the civilian detective had to get him out.
Now to my point, earlier in the day my husband and I had gotten into a big arguement. Ive been with my husband since i was 14 and Im now 24, our relationship has been through so much but it has gotten to the point that I feel it is abusive and unhealthy.
On March 11th I prayed with the pastors wife at my sisters church and asked to rededicate my life to God. But my heart was still aching and I had fallen to such a dark place that I attempted suicide. I took over 100 powerful sedatives but God allowed me to live. I spent several days in the ICU and 9 days in a psychiatric hospital. My world had been ripped from under me, my beautiful daughter and my husband taken in a blink of an eye. I remember waking up and feel blessed that I had survived, feeling as though God has given me a second chance.
Now a month later and a month to our first court date over my child I am wondering where I stand with my husband. I have been clinging to God and learning how to change, but my husband shows little interest in his actions. He says he wants to change but his actions show me differemt.
This is a defining point in my life. I have found God and know I must lean on him, but I feel that my relationship with my husband will drive a wedge between christ and I. My husband and I have been abusive to each other and I no longer wish to live that way.What happens if my husband doesnt choose to follow God, if he wants to continue the old lifestyle? I know without God in our life our marriage is doomed. I just needed someone to hear my story, other christians, to offer me some advice. I feel empty.