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Hey everyone! Ok, so here is my dilemma. I just become Christian a couple of months ago, after a really bad relationship I had been struggling to get out of for 2 years. With God's love and strength, I was able to get out of the relationship and now I am happier than I've ever been in my life. God came to me at a time in my life when I was really lost and had absolutely no belief. This incident saved me, and it just goes to show God's everlasting love despite who you are or whether or not you beleive. We are all children of God and He is always there, ready to let us in when we choose to take that step. Anyways, the dilemma is that I just got out of this terrible relationship and God has presented me with another man who I think I am starting to fall in love with. I didn't expect this to happen to quickly, and thought I would at least have some time to step back from relationships and just be single. This man is extremely caring and kind-hearted. I think I'm starting to fall for him, but I'm terrified because I don't want to fall in love with him and get hurt again the way my last boyfriend hurt me. More importantly, I don't want to become dependent on another human being to keep me fullfilled.. This is something I tried to do all my life before I found God, and I was never satisfied. I'm scared that if I fall for him I will lose my focus on God and resort to using another human being as my fulfillment. And then if I lose this man I will be left with nothing. And what if I can't find God again? The other issue is that this man comes from a very fundamental Christian background. His parents are together and he has a very close-knit family with values that, although good, aren't very flexible. My family, on the other hand, has a lot of issues involving drug and alcohol use, and depression. My parents are divorced, and my mom is going through a mental break down due to my brothers alcohol and drug use. My father has several mental disorders and doesn't keep in touch with me or my brother. I'm worried that my family issues, ( along with many others I won't go into) are going to scare him and drive him away. I am really scared to tell him about these things in my life because I don't want to lose him over it. I've also made a lot of poor choices in my life, such a having sex before marriage and trying drugs. I don't know what to do. I have so much love in my heart for him but scared it won't be returned. Any sort of help would be greatly appreciated!