You're a senior member of this forum and your whinning like a little baby. You think you have problems? You're not a death row inmate. Your not starving in africa. You're not a parapaligict who need someone to change there diaper. But ohhhh no you got it so bad right??? Get real. Put your problems into proper perspective. Stop making a mountain out of a mole hill. You're a senior member of this forum that people look up to that need your help prayers and encouragement. Your someone who should be eating meat, yet you still need milk. Whoever told you life was suppose to be easy or fair, lied okay! There's problems in life for sure. God will see you through them. You learn and grow the most in adverse times, not so much in comfortable good times. So count it as a blessing that you're being tested. God loves those he chastises. So please stop with the self termination before I send Arnold, Syberdyn Systems 101, the Terminator to your door. I'll be back! Asta la vista baby! ;-)