BlackBird....GOD is spirit and must be worshipped in that way. You and I are mortals..we are His greatest creation because we were not spoken into existence like the rest of creation. GOD took inert material already existing, stooped down, fashioned, molded, formed and shaped it into His image.....nothing scary or frightening. HE then breathed His very breath into that lump of clay and it became a vibrant, living soul, complete with a spirit, housed in a human body. You are that human body and you simply want to connect to your Creator...the clay pot wanting a touch of the Potter's hand... You are on the right path.
GOD is your heavenly father, and HE does not turn when someone is truly seeking HIM. He reaches us in various ways...His SON JESUS..HIs WORD, the BIBLE, His Holy spirit..or even angels...and total strangers approaching us with prophetic words of encouragement. I cannot count the ways that GOD reveals Himself. For me, personally...I have had actual healings, touches, and even heard an audible voice at one time. I have also been visited by annointed angels, witnessed a few supernatural events...and this old country boy's eyes were opened! I do not doubt your sincerity...but I do know that praying, fasting, seeking GOD is a good thing..and there is NO formula except a repentent heart. GOD looks down and sees your heart. His touch comes at just the right time. I do know that GOD inhabits the praises of His people. IF you are indeed one of His own, therein lies a clue! Praise...the more praise and worship you offer to HIM, His presence is guaranteed! When praises are sent UP...HIS blessings come down! Do not get caught up in semantics. Approach your Creator humbly, and take the time to listen..instead of a lot of begging. He already knows the desires of your heart. I Find that HIs presence touches me when I am reading the BIBLE. I ask the Holy Spirit to interpret what I read so that I can benefit from it.