Welcome to the site meggi.....it might be bad up till now ....but im praying the rest of the year is amazing
for you.....you will meet alot of great people here...and maybe you will get some answers you seek....better yet
you might even get a chance to help some one else.....nothing feels better than that.....
Keep your faith my sister..... God is right there with you......
May Peace and joy come to you soon....