Pray, read the Bible, study the word of God, let God help you and guide your life.
I will pray for you and that you don't lose your husband, I will also pray for God to give you the strength to get through this.
You want to be strong but are scared? Here is your chance to grab life by it's throat. Be strong, don't be scared. Trust God, and live as the best person you can be. I pray for you, your husband and that the whole situation gets better.