Hmm... Sometimes it can be an honor to be kicked around, spit at, pushed aside, trampled over... Because when you what you do for God, as his hands and feet, things suddenly change. Things change because you do it for the one who was literally kicked around, spit at, pushed around, and trampled over... When you do it for Jesus things suddenly change... It suddenly isn't about your feelings anymore but about his kingdom.
I am slowly learning things in life... Expect people to respond to you with anger and hate and jealousy, expect them to build walls and pull out their swords and shields... People are scared and this is the natural response... Not saying I'm perfect because I screw up all the time, it's a learning process... But the question is... What kind of person do you wanna be? Do you wanna respond the same way or do you wanna respond the way Jesus responded... He responded with love. Even as he hung on the cross he responded with love.
And his love reached the most broken people and gave them hope. It takes time to see changes... Takes a lot of devotion with God, fasting, and prayer so that you will spiritually, emotionally and mentally be prepared. But it creates such an amazing journey as Christ shows you what he can do through you to heal the broken hearted.