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I was saved about 4 years ago, and I have been doubting my faith at times. I get really bad anxiety when I eat food to the point of thoughts of suicide or giving up on God. I see visions of a girl I liked being pleased by other people, if you get my drift, and I see the same with visions of guys at times. I am struggling with a porn addiction and it absolutely breaks my heart, I assume it might have something to do with my visions of the opposite sex and same since that sort of exposure has no bounds. All of these thoughts and feelings and doubts happen after I eat, and it feels like I'm fighting a losing battle. I try to fast but I can't bring myself to do it. it's difficult for me to even function at times, like look for work or even talk to people. The story goes deeper then that, but the main points are there, I need prayer that's for certain. I have prayed and prayed, Read the bible a lot, I've spoken with pastors, brothers, and friends. It's driving me mad, and I war within my mind, I currently live at a mission for homeless people. I pray no one else goes through anything even near this tormenting, God bless and remember those out there who are weak because I know I am.