E
Hi guys, I was having some serious doubts about god for quite a while untill about 5 months ago. God gave me SUCH a strong message. What happend was one day i was at a party (sinning cause i didnt realy believe in god) then all of the sudden everyone left at the very same time. It was just me and my friend there at his house and I started feeling funny. Then it started getting worse, eventually I actually felt insane. I coudlnt stop thinking about my sins for some reason. It got so bad i was practically rolling around on the ground trying to escape my thoughts. Then I started repeating "this is a wake up call from god" and i couldnt controll it. My friend was talking to me and then he would say something like "do you think your pleasing god?" or "what do you have to say to god?" and i could tell when it was my friend talking and it was god talking through him. when it was god it was SO loud yet very gentle, so undescribable, but it was still my friends vioce. I understand why the bible relates it to lightning. anyway, I kept repeating to my friend "you are god" and he was telling me "yes i am, and i want you to stop living your life like this, i want you to call your mom and tell here everything" (keep in mind it was his party and he was doing the same things i was doing, and would never say this on his own). I also asked god if this was the final judgment (remember i had no idea what that was) but i didnt get an answer. God asked me "what are you going to stop doing if i forgive you right now?" I told him i would never steal, smoke weed, and take LSD again. He told me ok and that he was going to test me with these things to see if I was going to listen to him. He said to go home and lay down. I went home after i told my parents everything and as soon as i laid down on the bed I felt gods forgiveness and grace, it was SO incredible (before i laid down i still felt insane) and within 5 seconds i felt better than ive ever felt before.
the next day when i woke up I said "what did i do last night? i told my parents everything and I actually thought i was talking to god" I immediatly went out to go buy more weed (cause i gave all i had to my parents the night before) from the same person who i thought was god. I lived my life the same sinful way as if nothing happend and thought nothing of my experience ( i was still an athiest) then about 2 weeks after my experience I was faced with a day that i was tested with those three things i promised god i wouldnt do (stealing,LSD,weed) the moment i broke my last promise to god I realized that it was all a test and that day realy was a wake up call from god. I was in math class when all i realized this. As soon as i realized it someone turned around and quoted something sinful i said that day word for word. I thought it was a coincidence untill it kept happening. I came home and turned on the tv and then the tv also quoted my sin, the person on tv looked at the camera, pulled out a wallet that looked exactly like mine and said "everything is safe inside my wallet" ( that day i had said "my LSD is safe inside my wallet). at this point i was realy hopeing all this was just one big coincidence but i would hear something crazy like this on tv every 30 seconds. I start talking to myself at this point and I said something sinful and while the words were still coming out of my mouth they were quoted on tv. Trust me i can go on and on with this but this story is already getting long enough.. these things werent just on tv but i would hear people over the phone quote something i said that day in an everyday context without even knowing it. This happend that whole night untill I woke up that morning.
When i woke up i realized i was still thinking about my sin and i could actually hear it. I also realized I was still hallucinating, at that point i remembered that god had told me if i take LSD again I wouldnt stop hallucinating and thinking of my sin. this scared me realy bad and I converted to christianity and have gone to church almost every weekend. I now believe in God and Jesus and repent and pray every day. I do as much as i can to please god and ive been clean of drugs ever since. Its been about 5 months and im still hallucinating and i think about all my sins every second of the day ( i realy cant be more literal about that) it never leaves me alone.
Ive looked up things on the final judgment and its just so scary how similar it is, like how it says " god will forget your sins untill the day of judgment, then he will reveal them to you. or how revealtion says that god will test everyone on earth to see if there worthy to go to heaven. well god definetly revealed my sin to me and I was definetly tested ( i know god tests us but not like this) and it doesnt help at all that i was even asking if it was the finnal judgment during the wake up call (when i had no idea what the final judgment was... I was at a bible study and i asked god to give me a sign to know if im forgiven and i cracked open the bible to a random page and the very first thing i read and look at is "why should i forgive you". i didnt understand because i was genuinely sorry for my sin and repented all the time. I asked god to let me see a shooting star If it was too late and while i was aking him that i saw one. im realy scared and have tried everything. I follow all of god's commandments and i read the bible every day first thing in the morning. There is so much more i can tell you about these crazy signs god gives me but its way too much to type. also i get dreams of natural disaters right before they happend, like those tornadoes in joplin missorri.
anyways ive been freaking out every day and am so unsure if i still have an opportunity to go to heaven. Do you think god is doing this for punishment out of love (hebrews 11)? I was baptized when i was 9, and have believed in god most my life. I was only an athiest for 7-8 months. do you think he was trying to bring back the old me and the only way to do so was to scare me into thinking it was too late? Like i said, there is so much more to this story but i think ive typed enough. I know for a fact that this experience was god, and I dont like it when people say it wasnt.
anyone got anything to say about this?
the next day when i woke up I said "what did i do last night? i told my parents everything and I actually thought i was talking to god" I immediatly went out to go buy more weed (cause i gave all i had to my parents the night before) from the same person who i thought was god. I lived my life the same sinful way as if nothing happend and thought nothing of my experience ( i was still an athiest) then about 2 weeks after my experience I was faced with a day that i was tested with those three things i promised god i wouldnt do (stealing,LSD,weed) the moment i broke my last promise to god I realized that it was all a test and that day realy was a wake up call from god. I was in math class when all i realized this. As soon as i realized it someone turned around and quoted something sinful i said that day word for word. I thought it was a coincidence untill it kept happening. I came home and turned on the tv and then the tv also quoted my sin, the person on tv looked at the camera, pulled out a wallet that looked exactly like mine and said "everything is safe inside my wallet" ( that day i had said "my LSD is safe inside my wallet). at this point i was realy hopeing all this was just one big coincidence but i would hear something crazy like this on tv every 30 seconds. I start talking to myself at this point and I said something sinful and while the words were still coming out of my mouth they were quoted on tv. Trust me i can go on and on with this but this story is already getting long enough.. these things werent just on tv but i would hear people over the phone quote something i said that day in an everyday context without even knowing it. This happend that whole night untill I woke up that morning.
When i woke up i realized i was still thinking about my sin and i could actually hear it. I also realized I was still hallucinating, at that point i remembered that god had told me if i take LSD again I wouldnt stop hallucinating and thinking of my sin. this scared me realy bad and I converted to christianity and have gone to church almost every weekend. I now believe in God and Jesus and repent and pray every day. I do as much as i can to please god and ive been clean of drugs ever since. Its been about 5 months and im still hallucinating and i think about all my sins every second of the day ( i realy cant be more literal about that) it never leaves me alone.
Ive looked up things on the final judgment and its just so scary how similar it is, like how it says " god will forget your sins untill the day of judgment, then he will reveal them to you. or how revealtion says that god will test everyone on earth to see if there worthy to go to heaven. well god definetly revealed my sin to me and I was definetly tested ( i know god tests us but not like this) and it doesnt help at all that i was even asking if it was the finnal judgment during the wake up call (when i had no idea what the final judgment was... I was at a bible study and i asked god to give me a sign to know if im forgiven and i cracked open the bible to a random page and the very first thing i read and look at is "why should i forgive you". i didnt understand because i was genuinely sorry for my sin and repented all the time. I asked god to let me see a shooting star If it was too late and while i was aking him that i saw one. im realy scared and have tried everything. I follow all of god's commandments and i read the bible every day first thing in the morning. There is so much more i can tell you about these crazy signs god gives me but its way too much to type. also i get dreams of natural disaters right before they happend, like those tornadoes in joplin missorri.
anyways ive been freaking out every day and am so unsure if i still have an opportunity to go to heaven. Do you think god is doing this for punishment out of love (hebrews 11)? I was baptized when i was 9, and have believed in god most my life. I was only an athiest for 7-8 months. do you think he was trying to bring back the old me and the only way to do so was to scare me into thinking it was too late? Like i said, there is so much more to this story but i think ive typed enough. I know for a fact that this experience was god, and I dont like it when people say it wasnt.
anyone got anything to say about this?