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Im sad. I have a lot to be sad for, but I'm usually pretty happy. But something snapped in me yesterday. I'm not suicidal. I'm not non-functional. But I feel worse than I have in a long time.
1. My dad died a month ago and a lot of the last day choices fell on me even though he had disowned me. I planned the funeral.
2. My stepmoms father just died on Saturday and I'm very sad for her.
3. I have had to cut off much communication with my mother because of her unhealth. Yesterday she went in for surgery and the drs said there wasn't enough tissue to repair. So she is permanently disabled and has 3 more surgeries to do for other issues.
4. I started a medical trial a month ago and was supposed to get the results soon. Instead I got a call yesterday that all my blood tests were invalid because sent the wrong filter paper, so I have to wait another month for the results.
5. I'm dreaming all night and day about people dying. It's crazy.
I love Jesus, but this is just my current emotional state.
1. My dad died a month ago and a lot of the last day choices fell on me even though he had disowned me. I planned the funeral.
2. My stepmoms father just died on Saturday and I'm very sad for her.
3. I have had to cut off much communication with my mother because of her unhealth. Yesterday she went in for surgery and the drs said there wasn't enough tissue to repair. So she is permanently disabled and has 3 more surgeries to do for other issues.
4. I started a medical trial a month ago and was supposed to get the results soon. Instead I got a call yesterday that all my blood tests were invalid because sent the wrong filter paper, so I have to wait another month for the results.
5. I'm dreaming all night and day about people dying. It's crazy.
I love Jesus, but this is just my current emotional state.