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So for the past week id been working as a baby sitter for a new family and yesterday I was let go in a violent and terrifying way. Namely the husband threw my stuff on the street and called me every name in the book kind of way. I just sat there the whole time staring, like it was some nightmare. The point was I wasnt taking my babysitting job as seriously as I thought I was. To me what I did wasn't bad but the parents didn't see it that way. And in the end it wasn't ok. Now I'm depressed and disgusted with myself. Idk what to do or how to fix it. I'm just so wishing and hoping this was all a bad dream a nightmare but I just woke up and remembered. I want to cry but the tears won't come. And to make things worse I claim to be a follower of Christ. Yet I got fired for falling asleep on the job and letting the baby sleep too much. All these things like I said didnt seem bad at the time untill it all came to a head yesterday. You guys I know I'm new here but I need someone who gets what it's like I fail miserably while your a Christian and resist the urge to hide under a couch for the rest of my life. Im scared and sad and disgusted idk how to feel I hate myself.