I
I've been struggling and dealing with these fleshly desires that so easily
entangles me. I feel like such a hypocrite because when I'm not falling
into lustful desires I feel I'm living right. Even if I fall only once
in a month, I feel it's just as bad as living unholy everyday. Our
Perfect and Holy God doesn't deserve to be betrayed, even for a moment. I
almost feel like I'm loosing my mind because I feel like two different
people. One that wants to please God and serve Him, but the other is
when I fall into sin and I feel like a wicked monster when I give in to
the flesh.
I want to put this out there and be as transparent as possible about my
failures so my sin is "in the light". I don't
even watch porn, it's just the fleshly desires that I let overcome me
and I give in to them at times. In no way am I trying to justify myself
because of that, because even if it's a mere thought or looking at a
girl lustfully, it's just as bad and I know I've betrayed God in doing
so. I have to put this sin to death once and for all and be the child of
God I'm meant to be.
If anyone is struggling (or has struggled) with lust, I just want to say
that we (as the Body of Christ) have to be diligent and militant, and
not rest easy until we kill this sin by the Spirit of God. Sorry for the
wall of text, but I feel a desperate urgency in putting this out there.
I believe the Body of Christ is being attacked by our flesh like crazy
right now, and we got to fight back with all we got (speaking to myself
first and foremost), by the Spirit of God!
entangles me. I feel like such a hypocrite because when I'm not falling
into lustful desires I feel I'm living right. Even if I fall only once
in a month, I feel it's just as bad as living unholy everyday. Our
Perfect and Holy God doesn't deserve to be betrayed, even for a moment. I
almost feel like I'm loosing my mind because I feel like two different
people. One that wants to please God and serve Him, but the other is
when I fall into sin and I feel like a wicked monster when I give in to
the flesh.
I want to put this out there and be as transparent as possible about my
failures so my sin is "in the light". I don't
even watch porn, it's just the fleshly desires that I let overcome me
and I give in to them at times. In no way am I trying to justify myself
because of that, because even if it's a mere thought or looking at a
girl lustfully, it's just as bad and I know I've betrayed God in doing
so. I have to put this sin to death once and for all and be the child of
God I'm meant to be.
If anyone is struggling (or has struggled) with lust, I just want to say
that we (as the Body of Christ) have to be diligent and militant, and
not rest easy until we kill this sin by the Spirit of God. Sorry for the
wall of text, but I feel a desperate urgency in putting this out there.
I believe the Body of Christ is being attacked by our flesh like crazy
right now, and we got to fight back with all we got (speaking to myself
first and foremost), by the Spirit of God!