i do not really know what to say. i just repeat in my heart.. but i am not obedient in many ways. i want to serve but get tired. God said let us not grow weary while doing good, but oh, i am weary. He said Rejoice in the Lord always... i am not rejoicing as He said.. God, please just help me change. i am tired of myself even when others say do not be hard on myself, but theres really so much to 'make up' for.. and i so live in the past too i know. Help me just bow down at His feet and help me believe one more time, love as Jesus showed how to.