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Hello. I was married for 30 years. We had our ups and downs, just like everyone here on earth. Well, we were having troubles...to put it lightly. I had gotten saved and he followed about 2years or so later. Things were going the best than they ever had when we were following and living for our Lord and savior. After 30years of marriage he decided to start going on dating sites, talking, texting even meeting other women. I forgave him trying to keep our marriage together. He never stopped. He even went to another woman and moved in with her. He was going back and forth between her and me. I kept believing him. I knew it wasn't stopping. So I filed for a divorce. He kept having this affair. Then at court he begged not to go through with it. He came to court from the other woman's house. He had been staying with her. I did not want a divorce. I fought for my marriage for along time. A year or so. Since the divorce he has been leading me on that he wants us again. Yet he is still doing his crap. I keep falling for it not because I like it but because I am praying maybe this time it's for real. I believe I did the right thing with the divorce. I want us to work things out. I am the only one really trying. Trying with all my heart mind and soul. I keep getting pushed into a brick wall. I need advice please. I have been going through this for over a year and a half. I don't under why I am still having difficulty. I still love him, I don't like this new him. The emotional torture and mental is so hard. Any words or advice as to how to get over this and let go? I don't understand, please pray and any advice words of wisdom would greatly be appreciated and used. Just to let you know I have taken him back over 100 times. I know that sounds bad..and crazy..thank uou