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I thought Id like to write in on how I coped with mental illness WITHOUT DRUGS, I was a period of time after I entered my life in sinful acts which lead my heart to be broken and faith in ruins which serves myself right ,I suffered some life dangering thoughts after a series of bad events and was unstable for an amount of years, I’m a christian and have been for a long time and my knowledge of the word has helped me as certain scriptures have been tools for me ,. God has had to teach me step by step on how to COMBAT the mental illness, One thing that has been an inspiration to me as well it watching the movie (A beautiful mind) with actor Russell Crowe, first of all I have found that it is a spiritual warfare as well as a health condition (ie hearing voices, seeing black figures, things lighting up to show "the way" had to be combat through putting that scripture in a practical understanding use. this is how I did it (with Gods wisdom of course) I would hear disturbing voices and it was very unpleasant and sometimes scary, I could not and would not take pills for me to numb the voices down because I vouched never to take anything of mind tablets after seeing my mother live off pills and needles throughout her life, and because I was pregnant (for the next three years) through this, I had to learn these tactics, ok with the voices,,,, instead of freaking out or being scared of them I learnt to listen to what the voice is saying, then I would use what it said and turned it around to the opposite to what it is saying, using the information against itself , scripture basis , There are many scriptures that say that God is truth ie (John 1 :14) And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt amongst us, (and we beheld his Glory and glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth. (John 8:44e When he(the devil) speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar and the father of it. and I found that as I did this my heart and head were becoming alligned with each other, I believe as I was untwisting the voices to a truth God was putting the truth in my heart with his grace if I found no logical answer opposite to match. also with other things I had to search deeply step by step into my heart the sin and evil and wrong doing that was in my heart that was turning Gods shinning face or sense Gods smile against me as it was so dark so it seemed and he left it up to me but he lead me through the EVIL that I did, which contributed to a lot of the mind trips and voices torments and demonic buffeting, doing this seemed to lift off burdens that I carried and numerous guilts, but there was so much and I could take them step by step and one or few at a time, I wish to talk about the leading "lights" all this time ,I would use those lights to follow certain roads, I did some outrageous things by these lights lead what I do I would follow certain roads and even drive into peoples parking spaces people I didn’t know at their homes, whether the people were or weren’t home or follow streets which lead me to nowhere or in circles or where I shouldn’t be, and it was confusing for me and the voices didn’t help as I thought I was on a "God trip", Throughout the whole experience, I became extremely fearful with feelings of suicide, strong ones.I don’t know why I didn’t try to suicide even though the desire was strong, I was afraid to try,I believe that if I hadv’e let go God wouldv’e interviened instead I suicided emotionally feeling dead and lifeless on the inside because with this and couldn’t trust myself or anyone, eventually years down the track I rediscovered what I did emotionally whilst I was sitting outside at my outdoor setting and gave it to the Lord, with the lights I got sick of it thinking I was following God of heaven above I then "rebelled" and swallowed it and It was only until I did karaoke (Psalm 44:10 Be Still and know that I am God)being still at that moment ) a couple of years later When the "lights appeared to pick out what songs I would sing, alot of the time I barely knew the songs which woke me up to "the wrong way" and what I was following all this time, Satan had twisted Gods way of leading me, I think this is where that movie a beautiful mind helped me as well and I thank God for that.. Also after I learnt the ropes of marraige I came to realise after my husband is on my case about something that is a repetitive and unpleasant I had to find the calamity inside that I have with my relationship with God. Of my life and I found that God Makes no mistakes, I have discovered on my own without doctors or social workers, I have met many of christians in the mental wards being a patient myself a few years because they have been attacked by the devil big time from wrong turns away from God who need to face the sin from the past so God can wipe it clean from their slate and their conscience so God they can have renewed fellowship again back, I still battle bad feelings, Its only from my past, where God is working in my heart and setting me free Praise and Glory be to God