In the dead lonely dead of night there is stone-still weeping and a stagnant ocean of tears from the pain overflowing choked up gone cold and clotted up inside. In this cocoon all is empty, dead, barren. God, do you hear me? Is there any way out of this darkness? This still-life canvas of my living death so alone so listless and overloaded with a massive mountain of pain. This pain never ceases, never slows down, never weakens. Pain is the stuffing that saturates my half-dead corpses waiting to be finished. There is nothing in my life right now. All is darkness and void. Does the Lord hear me? Does the Lord care? Are these words nothing more than the whisperings of another worthless and wasted prayer? Are you listening? Do you know me? Is there anyone there?
I am beaten down, crushed, catatonic, comatose. Every day the same stagnant stranglehold corded up by the ligature of my own unraveled threads. Lord I am not living, I feel all alone, stranded, left and forgotten, decomposing, existing and yet dead. existing listlessly lifelessly. for what do i exist. where am i going. i am stuck. cement bath buried alive. existing behind walls. unseen. a desert of naked existence, i've dug my own grave and i'm stuck down here in the den of my lonely exile. God please help me. God please. Lord forgive me. Wash me, cleanse me, renew me. I'm so damaged. I don't know what to do. I'm hurting. Hurting so much nonstop. Please God.
God. God. God.
help me.
i'm drowning.
i need out of here i can't breathe.
hear me please. help me please.
help me get out of here.
Please. Please. Please.
I am beaten down, crushed, catatonic, comatose. Every day the same stagnant stranglehold corded up by the ligature of my own unraveled threads. Lord I am not living, I feel all alone, stranded, left and forgotten, decomposing, existing and yet dead. existing listlessly lifelessly. for what do i exist. where am i going. i am stuck. cement bath buried alive. existing behind walls. unseen. a desert of naked existence, i've dug my own grave and i'm stuck down here in the den of my lonely exile. God please help me. God please. Lord forgive me. Wash me, cleanse me, renew me. I'm so damaged. I don't know what to do. I'm hurting. Hurting so much nonstop. Please God.
God. God. God.
help me.
i'm drowning.
i need out of here i can't breathe.
hear me please. help me please.
help me get out of here.
Please. Please. Please.