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I am trying to remain as anonymous as possible. I am 18 years old, freshman at college. I was raised in church my whole life, but from age 14 to about a month ago, I was an atheist. I argued with Christians, and defended science with a passion. But for the past year, I really started thinking about purpose, my purpose and just the purpose of everything. On Sept 21, 2014 I -- crying my eyes out -- walked down and got saved at my home church.
But since I've been at college, I've been struggling with doubt a lot. One of my classes in particular focuses on evolution, and to be honest, it makes a lot of sense. I have a hard time trying to believe that it's not true. Also sometimes I guess I kinda think to myself, "You only got saved because you were homesick. You're not fooling anyone, you know deep down, you still don't believe."
Some days I'm reading my Bible and praying for hours, and I can really experience God. But other days I just feel like I'm lying to myself about this Christian thing, and I don't pray or even think about God at all.
But since I've been at college, I've been struggling with doubt a lot. One of my classes in particular focuses on evolution, and to be honest, it makes a lot of sense. I have a hard time trying to believe that it's not true. Also sometimes I guess I kinda think to myself, "You only got saved because you were homesick. You're not fooling anyone, you know deep down, you still don't believe."
Some days I'm reading my Bible and praying for hours, and I can really experience God. But other days I just feel like I'm lying to myself about this Christian thing, and I don't pray or even think about God at all.