My past was a complete waste.
Even after saying I believed in Jesus,
I never accomplished anything for Him,
and commited sins that, in my opinion,
are probably worse than any I commited before that.
I often feel if He was to come back today,
I'd have to hang my head in shame,
I don't think I'd hear 'well done' from Him.
I've blown every opportunity for good that's ever come my way,
I rarely see that until after the fact,
and if I DO think something MIGHT be right,
I'm so NOT used to that, I just can't believe it,
and I'm stunned into in-action,
so nothing gets accomplished anyway.
Add to that, I often get pushed out of fellowship
by people who have an unforgiving heart
or by misjudging me or just deciding
they don't want me in their 'circle'.
And I, too, don't have a clue about what I'm
supposed to be doing in the future.
I had some hopes to change my outlook,
that maybe it really WAS all my fault,
and I was the reason for 'attracting negativity' in my life.
(Yah, thanks for that encouragement.)
But new hope was quickly dashed,
and this year went from one of anticipation
to spinning wheels in a rut. Again.
Then I wonder what's wrong with me,
or why are people who are supposed to be
forgiven by Jesus so unforgiving towards me?
Or am I just so uncomfortable to be around
because I'm not just like them, or I never learned
how to be the 'strong-leader' type,
so I've grown old and undesirable to people?
Whatever the case, there's a couple of things I'd have to say .....
First...We're not alone.
Even if there's no one else that goes through this,
there's at least two of us.
Second...I don't think Jesus wants us to stay thinking like this.
Because the truth is...
Jesus loves us, He died for our sins,
He rose from the grave, and He's coming again!
So, now what?
We can't change the past.
We can't change people's hearts,
or attitudes towards us.
I don't think Jesus is mad at us,
His love is eternal, His grace abounds,
and His mercies are new every morning.
Why would He NOT be mad at us BEFORE
He gave us Jesus, But now we believe In Jesus,
He saved us and gave us eternal life with Him in
His kingdom, and NOW HE's MAD at us?!
That doesn't make sense.
And it's the enemy(s) of us that want us demoralized,
so you know where THEY can go.....
Add that it really isn't about us, anyways.
That takes the pressure off.
It's about Jesus and who He is, and what He's done,
and what He promises to do, so.....
I guess there's only one thing left to do.....
Rejoice! \
/ Rejoice in the Lord always;
and again I say, rejoice!
Jesus said to rejoice because our
names are written in heaven. Luke10:20
Jesus said In the world we would have tribulation,
but be of good cheer, He has overcome the world. John16:33
Jesus said He wants His joy to remain in us. John15:11, 17:3 ...
Hey, we're blessed to not be caught up in
bowing to a false god like allah,
or believing a false prophet like muhommed,
or waiting for reincarnation like hindus,
or hoping for nothing like bhuddas.
We're saved by the true and living God,
The Lord Jesus Christ, who loves us and
gave Himself for us, and promises to come again
and take us to be with Him, no condemnation,
because the penalty for our sin has been paid in full.
Let's give God the glory, great things He has done.
Let's give God the glory, He gave us His Son.
Sometimes it's not easy
Sometimes we all need encouragement.
Let's read Hebrews ch.12, then let
brotherly love continue.
God bless you, if you didn't write your post,
I wouldn't have either, and I really needed to
take a new look at this myself, so thank you,
and thank you, Lord Jesus. Amen.