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I am a single mom of two children. After a very hard and difficult break up with my ex it left me in a world of drug abuse and depression. This continued for a couple of months. During this time, my son's dad (who we used to be best friends, but the friendship diminished and has been horriable for the past 3 years) broke up with his girlfriend. We found ourselves conforting one another on a friendship level again. We both found God, and life seemed to be going well. We had some ups and downs, but were always able to overcome them. The family seemed to be complete, my son had his mommy and daddy at the same time. Although we never become romantically involved, that close friendship was there. It seemed that God's plan was easy to see.
Two days ago, I had a blow up and freaked out on him. I said some very hurtful things, and I said some thigns that I cannot take back. I have tried to apologize, but he won't forgive me. He said he wants nothing to do with me anymore and that he hates me. He is even confused on what to do about our son. He is willing to walk away from his son just to not have to deal with me. I know what i said and did was wrong, but it wasn't anything that he hasn't said or done to me, and I have always forgiven him. I have begged him for forgiveness, offered counseling, I have even poured out my heart to him. His response is either "leave me alone", "go away", or " not my problem."
How is this God's plan? How can anything positive come from this? I am a new Christian and I don't have a church a family or anyone to lean on right on. I just don't know what to do.
Two days ago, I had a blow up and freaked out on him. I said some very hurtful things, and I said some thigns that I cannot take back. I have tried to apologize, but he won't forgive me. He said he wants nothing to do with me anymore and that he hates me. He is even confused on what to do about our son. He is willing to walk away from his son just to not have to deal with me. I know what i said and did was wrong, but it wasn't anything that he hasn't said or done to me, and I have always forgiven him. I have begged him for forgiveness, offered counseling, I have even poured out my heart to him. His response is either "leave me alone", "go away", or " not my problem."
How is this God's plan? How can anything positive come from this? I am a new Christian and I don't have a church a family or anyone to lean on right on. I just don't know what to do.