Hello this is my first day or night here. Iam a new christian and have just recently gotten clean off of drugs after the past 8 years. I now have about a month clean. I feel scared that i will fall back into my ways again and my faith just the past few days has been slipping and ive been committing sins ive already asked forgiveness for and its been a very difficult transition. I promised God i would stop a certain sin and 2 weeks later i blew it. Its something iam struggling really hard with to give up but two embarrassed to say openly.. ive missed church the past couple of weeks and i think my pastor gave up on me. I keep having the thoughts also tht wat if its just not real, but then somehow ive managed to stay sober for 30 days, confused