Welcome James, I am new to this place or any chat room. I have never attempted this as for myself. I don't know if this is even the right place to be...I got how to make a fool of yourself here down..lol.....I am just thankful I am alive and now I know life is about perspective and kindness.....If you want you can get distracted with things that don't matter as I was....tv and work and drugs....i do know how to start over a new life but i am doing it....I live in a new town and I got a new job and am learning to be humbled. All I did was get saved and then my so called empire came down....but I am at peace and i should be in shock. I lost a lot....my marriage and career and health...It has been 6 months and i see now that God was not gonna do what i wanted but he was doing it his way. Which my friend is the right way..now i tell people about God and I am shocked how you get persecuted for it. When Jesus said it would happen I never believed him. So many people say they believe in God,but don't want to even go to church. They drink or do drugs or only want God when they need something..trust me I was that guy......my ex-wife thought i was dead...lol....not only am i not dead...I see that God is loving and patient and loves to show off....the only thing i can think of is saul...to just be flying in one direction and get slammed down and think your being killed or Gods wrath will surely come for what you have done. Being selfish and not even giving God credit for all "your success". Now I see I am loved by so many,I am blessed to be typing. God is real. He came to me when I was broken. I never had any more faith then a mustard seed. I would go to church and mock the preacher. I said I don't even believe there is a God. Now people can't even believe I am walking around and not onlly alive but God says not only have I saved you jacob but I will use you for my pleasure. So I don't mind,I had my shot and ran it all into the ground. So God if I am just to pass thru this chat room deal or not. You will let me know. I came here as you said. But i don't want to be here in this chat place and if one person needs hel[p then show me where they are. I know that God knew your name before the beginning of time and that Jesus was right there with him.....you are so important that God has a purpose for you.....if you are alive and reading this ....you still haven't fulfilled what he has chosen for you. Don't get depressed about your life,you just listened to the wrong voice. God has always been with you. It is you that turned away. But thankfully he is still waiting with his arms open for you. I got a new drug for you...its called the Holy Spirit.....pray...it really works...get saved..baptized....it gives God full access to you..... repent.....I know you love your sin...but repent...and take Jesus's righteousness and talk to God....just as you would your best friend....God sent Jesus down to die for you..he came when we were sinners...For God just trust him once...you gave 100 percent to dance with evil or sin...can't you give just a fraction of effort for God he gave his Son for us? I say this because i lived it and now I can't go back. As God says....Now you Know! God loves you and so do I....God have mercy on us all....thank you...i said my "peace"....