I should probably make a new thread about this considering that it needs to be seen by people.
I am really weird and possibly a little crazy.
If I thought that there was a giant pearl buried at a specific Latitude and Longitude somewhere in the Sahara, that somehow only I knew about. I would do whatever it takes to get there, to be the one who finds it.
I tried joining the French Foreign Legion in 2009. With the hope that I would find something worth more than just money or things or stuff. I've had really awesome things, really nice stuff and loads of money. None of it really means anything.
We have all seen or believe that people are capable of Epic amounts of love. Like Refugee children in Sudan, where one girl no older than 16 is taking care of 10 other kids. She has experienced horrors that I have never in my wildest dreams imagined. Yet, she has a light and fire that cannot be extinguished.
It is not that I feel I am MISSING something or there is some part of me that is unfulfilled, it is that I believe that there is more to it than this. There has to be.
There has to be a love worth fighting for, HERE right in front of us. And we are missing it. I don't believe God made us to plod into each other's lives, full of walls, fences, moats and traps. "Don't get too close, don't hold on too tight, don't try too hard, and whatever you do don't fall in love."
...because YOU don't deserve it. <this is a lie.
I am reminded of the analogy of the frog. If you put him in hot water he jumps out but if you put him in cool water and then turn it up he boils. If we witness an atrocity, we scream foul play and call the cops or cry out to God because of how terrible injustice is. But when the injustice occurs slowly within ourselves, we do nothing. It is as if we tell ourselves that a little lie about ourselves is okay. Its just me, I'm not worth getting offended over. We lose self respect, ambition, hope, peace and we punish ourselves because we have not become the people that we thought we should be. We compromise on the kind of Love that we know we crave and settle for something less, or something else.
You are worth more than this.^
If you are a true man of God, you should not feel ashamed to move mountains and slay dragons to win the heart of your woman. What is easy is not valuable and what is valuable is not easy. Take courage that Your God is an Awesome God, He does not wish terrible things for you but, to bless the efforts of your hand. Is not love a reflection of the handy work of its chief designer and creator? God did not give you a heart to be a thorn for you to bear. Stand and be counted as Men of faith and fight for the things that matter most to you.
If you are a woman of the LORD, do not be discouraged. You are WORTHY to be pursued from the ends of the earth, to be fought for, to be saved, and to be LOVED. Yours is a rare beauty, hidden only for the discerning to see. It is not in the ornamentation of your flesh but, the Lord who is with you brings a light from inside of you that has no equal. Such beauty exists in the Daughters of our God, the servants of the Most High, that it could light up the whole world and cast a shadow upon the rising sun.