I don't understand How people can be this way I just don't. I can't handle anymore hurt
You haven't told us what is bothering you, but I will mention that people can be quite cruel, but the Lord is not cruel. We can always commune with him. As a matter of fact, he WANTS us to commune with him:
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34] But when the Pharisees heard that he had silenced the Sad'ducees, they came together.
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35] And one of them, a lawyer, asked him a question, to test him.
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36] "Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?"
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37] And he said to him, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.
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38] This is the great and first commandment.
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39] And a second is like it, You shall love your neighbor as yourself.
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40] On these two commandments depend all the law and the prophets." Matt 22:34-40 RSV