Perhaps GOD wants to work on you, heal you, show you
HIS Wonderfullness,
HIS Lovingkindness and soo much more that HE Is and always will be before leading you into a healthy relationship with someone just yet.. I have been sick.. and felt like anyone who tried to get close.. well i just thought, no way can i get involved because i am so sick.. so what happened was (during my sickness).. as i cried out to GOD.. I got close & closer to LORD Jesus Christ, long story short.. HE was able to work on me. Now i am doing much better, still not completely healed but better off than i was before and i live with such Wonderful hope and joy now and that hope and joy is all provided by the good LORD, it's everlasting so worth striving for and suffering for too. At least IMHO and experience.
I Hope this helps you in some way and encourages you too.
Also, I try to avoid using the word never because of
Luke 1:37
Anyway.. some of the words in
James 5 that stood out to me as I read them were..
Be patient therefore, brethren, unto the coming of the Lord. Behold, the husbandman waiteth for the precious fruit of the earth, and hath long patience for it.. .. Should we ask or strive to bear fruit ? Kinda learning how that one works.. : )
Be ye also patient; stablish your hearts .. God led me to 1 Peter 5:10-11 the other day..
Is any among you afflicted? let him pray.
Please keep praying.. keep seeking HIS Kingdom and HIS righteousness with all your heart..
13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13
And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.
Keeping you in prayer and will ask others to pray for you too.
GOD Bless you.