We are way ahead of the vast majority who have not surrendered themselves into the loving hands of our Lord, Saviour, and best friend, Jesus.
(2Tim 1:7 [KJV])
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
(2Tim 1:8 [KJV])
Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God;
(1Pet 4:12 [KJV])
Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
(1Pet 4:13 [KJV])
But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.
Trust Him. His ways are far above our understanding. It will be worth it all. I can hardly wait to see you there, my beloved sister. He is very near you now.