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I told myself that I should be requesting as minimal as possible since I don't think prayer requests should be used as some 'wish to be granted' sort of thing, but hear me out...
I think I may have found some sort of purpose in order to keep going in such a pointless and never ending misery of a world. I ended up backing out from college this semester since at the very last minute I thought that what I was planning to do would be a bit pointless and that I would just be wasting time and money. I'm thinking once I get myself a job then I'll go in as a part-time student to do something maybe something as psychology since I feel like that could be something I can do and help people in ways that I wish I could have been helped. So if I go to apply once again, I want to know if I'll be definite on what path I decide to choose and stick to and know that it will be worth it in the long run. If not this, then I need to know what I could really do.
As for a job, I'm going to submit an application to a place where yes there's connections I know that may or may not help me get in, but I think would also be a great start in order for me to start heading in the direction I may get myself to. I can conquer my fear of being around people and become more outspoken and have better communication skills. I can fix myself up in the process even if it may be a dreadful situation.
Lastly, I want to stick to the fact that I know that there will be a purpose with my life instead of dreading it to get by, repeat and then die. I want to let go of the past hurts and events that no longer will define who I am as a person. I want to serve for others in constructive ways no matter the situation or what is the point to even live. I want meaning to life even if nothing else will give me a reason. By now I know that staying the very way that I am is going to lead to death if I keep my head in such position throughout however many years I have left. I want to know if God truly is real and if he's the same that I've hoped for or even better too. I've already had minor changes that I never admitted to in my life and I need to know if there's a different way to go about everything.
Thank you kindly.
I think I may have found some sort of purpose in order to keep going in such a pointless and never ending misery of a world. I ended up backing out from college this semester since at the very last minute I thought that what I was planning to do would be a bit pointless and that I would just be wasting time and money. I'm thinking once I get myself a job then I'll go in as a part-time student to do something maybe something as psychology since I feel like that could be something I can do and help people in ways that I wish I could have been helped. So if I go to apply once again, I want to know if I'll be definite on what path I decide to choose and stick to and know that it will be worth it in the long run. If not this, then I need to know what I could really do.
As for a job, I'm going to submit an application to a place where yes there's connections I know that may or may not help me get in, but I think would also be a great start in order for me to start heading in the direction I may get myself to. I can conquer my fear of being around people and become more outspoken and have better communication skills. I can fix myself up in the process even if it may be a dreadful situation.
Lastly, I want to stick to the fact that I know that there will be a purpose with my life instead of dreading it to get by, repeat and then die. I want to let go of the past hurts and events that no longer will define who I am as a person. I want to serve for others in constructive ways no matter the situation or what is the point to even live. I want meaning to life even if nothing else will give me a reason. By now I know that staying the very way that I am is going to lead to death if I keep my head in such position throughout however many years I have left. I want to know if God truly is real and if he's the same that I've hoped for or even better too. I've already had minor changes that I never admitted to in my life and I need to know if there's a different way to go about everything.
Thank you kindly.