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You don't need a boyfriend, except as a step toward getting married. Get involved socially in places where there are Christians, like church activities so hopefully you can meet a Christian man. The abuse issues? That's something to pray about and maybe get help with. if you really start developing a relationship with a man who is interested in you, you'll need to let him know about that before there is a proposal.
I do get involved in church activities. It would actually be great if I could find that special guy in church, but it can't be the only place to look for a good husband right?. I think I will be limiting myself.
Now, I don't know about the part where I have to let him about what happened Before there is a proposal. I wouldn't want to scare him off. It will probably come out one way or another but I don't know if Before a proposal is the right time.
But anyway, thanks for your input.