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I know what the Word says and I know what is in my heart but I am struggling everyday with my current situation and just need some words of hope and encouragement. I am in the process of a divorce of my husband of 15 years after many years of infidelity on his part and a lack of willingness to fix our marriage. I signed us up for many counseling sessions as well as retreats through the church and although we went together, I was the only participant. Two years ago I walked away and I have no regrets. Our divorce has been a lengthy process and I recently left the Catholic church and have relocated to a Community Church where I feel loved and very much at home. My dilemma is that I have one week until my final papers are filed and at least 4 months if not more til the divorce is considered final. During the last couple months I have been close friends with a gentleman from church that I have known for a long time. We have both leaned on each other through some difficult times and have now found ourselves in a situation where we have strong feelings toward each other. We both want to honor God and have chosen to place some distance between us. The dilemma I have is that the Lord brought him into my life to bring me to this church and placed him there when I needed a friend who is strong in their faith. This distance we created is causing damage to our friendship because we have placed so many rules and boundaries to honor God because I am not officially divorced. I am just concerned about losing the friendship that I cherish very deeply. Our God is a loving God and does not bring us pain but joy, so why do I feel as I do.