hi this is the only thing that keep me coming back over and over again. when my excuses of feeling to give into the moment and i do. but caming back is after awhile of doing what I want the fear of GOD of him take his protect from me from not being able to help my love ones . and really Its a numbness to the reallity that its not that bad because of my excuse. but ultimately this question that i cant ever get out of my head is How much to I love this more than GOD and every thing he has done for me. to the extreme to keep on going on doing this very well Knowing where all the one that are in hell wish forever they never continue to follow there selfish desire to death one or the other forever and never. if you have the internet on your phone or conputter look up Revelation of hell by mary Katebackstir. you know we hate fear. but it will save us from the ultimate danger. look at a continueing sinner they have no fear of GOD in stupiddty.