huh? I posted a reply and apparently it didn't show.
So in response to the above comment, I have had these types of nightmares for years, probably my whole life, and I very much appreciate the psychological approach. This anxiety is very much mainly a medical issue related to heritage and a chronic medical condition. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, GAD, and Clinical Depression. If you knew my life story, it'd make a lot of sense.
So these dreams are usually only feeling dreams. They are in the first person, meaning I see them through my eyes. I don't see myself. Often times I'm in the dark and I sense something chasing me. If I do see anyone it's usually someone I don't know or one of my parents trapping me. However, I usually cannot see the "enemy". It's just like something is lurking in the shadows waiting to pounce.
I recently began running again. I ran for several months but got injured, and it took about 4 months to heal. By then it was too hot to run, so I didn't run for another 2 months or so. So a couple days ago I began running again.
I have plenty of stessors in my life. 1) I have to move within 3 weeks and I have no place to go. My roommate said we'd discuss it next month but apparently chose to have the convo a month early and gave me until Aug 15 to move. I don't hold it against her. I cannot pay rent... onto stressor #2. 2) I have been fighting with disability since Oct. 2012. Every person says someone else is supposed to fill out my paperwork. I have spent hours and hours fighting this including speaking with 3 drs., Spending 6 hours on a bus, and walking 5 miles through downtown Los Angeles in order to speak with my dr., spoken to hospital admin, social workers, and disability workers. I'm at a loss. At this point I have no income. I have to find a person to put me up for free. 3) Dealing with some complicated grief regarding my father (died last year) and my mother (still alive). 4) I have a chronic illness and very little support. My bf is very sensitive to it including nearly becoming a vegetarian for me, but he doesn't really know how to handle it.
Uhm... is that enough? 6 months
Mostly, I just don't know where I'm going. I lived in an apt that was way too expensive for me (about 75% of my income). I lost my first job in Jan 2012 for medical reasons. Instead of filing for disability, I chose to take another job and lost that for medical reasons also. I moved out Nov. 2012 and moved into a home of a church family for free. I was there for 6 months and had to move once more. I chose to go to a place where I had a low rent because at the time I thought I was getting an income soon. The only other option would have meant I would have been sick for the next 6 months of my life due to the owners heavy smoking. After I moved my dr changed his mind about disability. Now, I've been at this new place for almost 3 months and I have to move to some place where they won't charge me rent.