May I ask you why?
1) You are smart.
2) You are young.
3) You believe and have searched why you believe this and disbelieved that.
Perhaps you don like that cold. Perhaps you and your friend seek to live in a better place, but I know here many have lost home, beds, lands... many things, and some hopes are hold (held).
I am sick! I'm not dying, yet. Each day I get an injection of 10 cc of a chemical to kill the thing a mosquito game (Leishmania). My flesh in the are is loosing its sensibility. I'm eaten alive, and this is how spiritually I was dying without knowing it, hours after hours.
This morning, my first thoughts were: I have to visit pastor Eduardo (one of my few friends) to scan those blood tests and the cardiac report to back up the history I have at the hospital and to show the CNE why I didn't attent to vote or to be part of the the obliged comissing they gave me to be a witness/worker in Dec. 8. In a blink of the eyes, Eduardo sent me a text message: Do I have any power of the mind or IT IS GOD DIRECTING ME where to go?
I guess HE LOVES you more...
Just tell HIm what's wrong inside you, He will direct you on what to do.