I'm just gonna be completely honest: I'm not surprised you're talking to her again.
I kind of figured that you'd go right back. I know that sounds very harsh, and it is not my intention to hurt your feelings....but just by what you were giving off, I figured as much.
I really hope that you find your value and worth in God. I think I'm done giving advice. You are going to do what you're going to do, and as much advice as so many people are telling you, you keeping going back to a person who is so toxic that you don't even know because it seems that you aren't even fully aware of your worth.
And that is what saddnes me. Someone (you) who has so much value and doesn't even know it.