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oi. eeeeyup. I must skip typing half of what's in my head and nothing is coming through coherently because I am seeing that I'm offending and upsetting more people than helping here on the forums. I should minded my initial idea of avoiding the forums.
Every report card I got in primary through high school stated
*Tiffany does not play well with others. I remember my dad telling me about this time he came to pick me up from pre-school and found me sitting on the steps with arms folded and pouting. When asked why, I explained that the other children were not playing by the rules and rather than play with them I was going to punish them by not letting them play with me and with a spiteful huff I said I didn't need any of them. For the entirety of the rest of my time at that school, I sat on the stairs away from all those children every single day until I graduated. (avoidance/isolation habits die hard I suppose) when you grow up with the rule "If you can't say something nice don't say anything at all..." and if you are a chatty person... it's far easier to simply seclude yourself to avoid overstepping the don't speak if you aren't going to be nice rule... this way you can speak and not hurt anyone's feelings.
AND
*Tiffany is not working to her ability. OR *Tiffany is an underachiever (that I always found offensive because who are THEY to assume they could assume to know my abilities were any greater than what I displayed. I could have been working as hard as I possibly could but simply sucked really bad compared to all the other schoolchildren.
I'm sure God is trying to teach me something here but I am simply not willing to listen at this point and time. Yet another FAIL on my part. Fail Fail Fail... Yay me. (sigh)
Every report card I got in primary through high school stated
*Tiffany does not play well with others. I remember my dad telling me about this time he came to pick me up from pre-school and found me sitting on the steps with arms folded and pouting. When asked why, I explained that the other children were not playing by the rules and rather than play with them I was going to punish them by not letting them play with me and with a spiteful huff I said I didn't need any of them. For the entirety of the rest of my time at that school, I sat on the stairs away from all those children every single day until I graduated. (avoidance/isolation habits die hard I suppose) when you grow up with the rule "If you can't say something nice don't say anything at all..." and if you are a chatty person... it's far easier to simply seclude yourself to avoid overstepping the don't speak if you aren't going to be nice rule... this way you can speak and not hurt anyone's feelings.
AND
*Tiffany is not working to her ability. OR *Tiffany is an underachiever (that I always found offensive because who are THEY to assume they could assume to know my abilities were any greater than what I displayed. I could have been working as hard as I possibly could but simply sucked really bad compared to all the other schoolchildren.
I'm sure God is trying to teach me something here but I am simply not willing to listen at this point and time. Yet another FAIL on my part. Fail Fail Fail... Yay me. (sigh)