Currently the idea of living a long life is downright depressing.
Not only does it look like I will never get a long- term job, but I seem to be "inheriting" some of the few things that I don't want from my mother (joints starting to hurt in bad weather, occasional pain where I know the sciatic nerve is ,,,,,.)
...and the idea of a care home where I know there nurses have to be not only nurses but cooks, cleaners and clercs knows I mean they would never have enough time for all their patients.